Wednesday, 20 August 2014

LIFE AND ME



It seems to be a mess,
I am Juggling between the lives.
I wonder, where do I belong to?
Where is the place, where do I reside?

My life is a hell, with demons all around,
There is no help, no way to escape!
I don’t know where things are going,
And how long is the life of pain.

I don’t seek for name,
I seek for a way.
A way out to this hell,
I don’t seek for the gain.

Where do the roots of these roads end?
I am clueless, but not hopeless yet.
I hope for the life to begin,
I wish for the pain to sink in.

Till then, I am on a way..
Where nothing I could see.
There is a life beyond this,
That is where my journey meant to be.

Friday, 15 August 2014

INDEPENDENCE DAY

while everybody is busy uploading statuses and changing their dps and wihing each other a HAPPY INDEPENDENCE DAY i wonder, are we really matured enough to handle this independence?

Firstly what is Independence? is it to spit on the and say "tere baap ka road hai kya?", is it to throw garbage here and there and say "foreign is so clean, i hate India." or is it to choose that you won't go out to vote but, definitely curse the government? In our constitution, we do have fundamental rights. If these rights got violated, we can case against the concerned person. Similarly, there are set of fundamental duties that we are obliged to follow. Do we?

we dance our heart ut saying that we are INDEPENDENT but, do we deserve this? Are we capable of handling, preserving and respecting this freedom that we have got? We, the INDIANS preach a lot about being the world's largest democracy but, how many of us actually try to understand the meaning and the motive of democracy?

I believe that we all have taken our democracy, our right to freedom and the independence way too granted. we should remember that, each time when we don't perform our duties well, a question on our rights arises. It is not only the duty of the authorities to look after the things but, as a citizen it is our responsibility to make sure that not only these authorities but also the other citizens should maintain the code of conduct.

Independence is not just on one day, we enjoy it life long and so should be our duties towards this nation.

Monday, 21 July 2014

DO YOU KNOW HOW WINDY..

Do you know how windy,
the weather seems tonight?
Haunting darkness is all
that i see in sight.

I can see your smile,
somewhere very far,
I don't know whether m coming closer,
or we are just falling apart.

This windy wind is not letting me sleep,
It is destroying promises, that were mean to keep.


Do you know how windy,
the weather seems tonight?
All those memories of us,
are seeking to come under the light.

I wish i could touch you,
hold you and kiss you again.
There's no brighter day,
it is going to rain.

This windy wind is pulling me off from my feet,
I want you to stop, but my voice is unable to reach..

And there you walk away in front of my eyes,
I don't know with whom does my curse lies?
Whom should I blame to let you go away,
this windy weather or our million good byes? 





Sunday, 20 July 2014

Way to home



A WAY TOWARDS HOME
Have you ever felt an urge to rush home as soon as you can? Something like which happens when you are sad, you get to feel that the whole world is illusion, you are distorted and the only thing that seems real, that belongs to you is your home and people who stay there. Your voice just breaks and you couldn’t think of anything because you mind is flooded with negative thoughts. At that time all you see is your home, you try to complete the journey merely in the thought of reaching home at some moment and some day.
I personally hate being at home on Sundays, I always have arguments with my parents over something or other and I end up hating the holiday! But, somewhere between the lines I cannot deny the fact that, when I am completely broken mentally, the only place I find comfort is at home. I don’t talk to my friends neither hang around anywhere; I just feel like rushing home and talk to the woman who is waiting for me over lunch. I might not share what is wrong with me, but somehow for their sake and the love that they give me, I smile. I forget the stress that I am suffering from, all I feel like is talking to her and snuggling into my blanket.
You know when things are in order, we are least bothered about home and people inside it. We care about ourselves while they still care about us. We scream and shout and do all sorts of tantrums – “I want to run away from these people” (my punch line) but the real value of home is realized only when we feel disillusioned with world and we find no escape anywhere. Therefore, the comfort level that we get at home cannot be given by any place in the world. This is because not only our home but also the people, our parents our siblings, belong to us. It is the only place where we can open out our heart and cry out, unafraid of being noticed and laughed by anyone. 



Thursday, 17 July 2014

THE DILEMMA WITH LOVE IS WHETHER TO HOLD IT BACK OR TO SET IT FREE

When a bird has got her wings to fly,
she is all set to bid me good-bye.
million things lead you to stop her,
but all I do is only sigh.

For so many months I took her care,
my life had her share,
the delicate bird whom I loved so much
now has wings in pair.

My love for her grew day after day,
her life definitely had own way.
I don't know what to choose,
because in love, I cannot ask her to pay.



Sitting on a couch, i watch her fly,
I feel as if, a part of me is about to die.
I don't know to rejoice or to frown
over a bird that left me in front of my eye.

The dilemma with love is that you can't decide,
whether to hold it and cage or leave it free to survive.
It is tough to leave it free and wait for it to return,
but, isn't it difficult to hold it back, for selfish reason...







Wednesday, 16 July 2014

ANGER IN HER LOVE

The swollen eyes and wrinkled forehead, told a lot about the storm in her mind. She was burning in jealousy, with her mouth not uttering a single word. She had sleepless nights with memories following her each night. Mornings, made no difference, her mind was full of his thoughts till night.The red face was for anger, but her red heart was filled with love. They say anger exists where love lives, this is what she meant, when she screamed at him - "i hate you."
For her old aged soul, he wasn't a distant memory but rather a fresh wound which is making her aware of her existence and her bond with pain. She failed to express the madness she had for him, and he failed to understand the deep love within. for what you see is a surface, but nobody knows the journey inside.
 She loved him was reality, and she would love him is a fact... but what he didn't noticed underneath her anger was her innocent adolescent soul, who cannot share him with anyone in anymore lives to come.

Wednesday, 9 July 2014

WHAT IS EQUALITY?



WHAT IS EQUALITY?
“Equality” is the most misinterpreted, misquoted and controversial word that has ever existed in human context. What equality meant for me might not be equality for others and thus, it is difficult to come to any one conclusion in human context. Today, at this point of time there are people struggling across the world for equality which is gender based, cultural based and so on. This term reflects a different meaning for every individual existing upon earth. Similarly, what equality for me was a decade back is not anymore an issue for me and the meaning would change again in future also.

Being a woman, I have always supported woman rights. They were always at my top priorities and still they are. But, what I feel is the real meaning of equality has misinterpreted in many ways. Though I am one of those who support feminism strongly, but, I still believe that men and women cannot be compared and bought at an absolutely equal level in many aspects. Few months ago I had read an article which said that, comparing men and women is like comparing fish with a bird. You cannot expect a bird to swim or a fish to fly, but what you can expect is, the “coexistence” of birth the species with equal opportunities to grow and survive. 

My idea of equality is slightly broader and different than most of us. What I believe equality is – having equal rights and duties which constitutions provide us. Being a woman, I must be paid according to my skills and not as per my gender. Similarly, I shouldn’t get any uneven advantage in my professional life, simply because I am a woman. I must be promoted, and appreciated for my work irrespective of the gender that I posses. Equality is when, despite of being a housewife, I have property on my name and I get the respect that I deserve. I should have freedom to protest, express and achieve heights in my life. I shouldn't be compared to my brother, husband or any male. I should be treated like a different individual altogether. Further, what I wear is absolutely my choice and that doesn’t give anyone a right to rape, harass or molest me, but, if I am expecting equality I must also dress up in a dignified manner. My freedom of choice does bring responsibility too. My life must have my rules. 


I Have come across lots of arguments which scream that, if men can bare their chests so can we. I completely disagree with this. Men and women are two different entities. There body structure and psychology differs as well. Being a woman, I cannot, I need not and I should not bare my chest because that is not equality which I am fighting for. My equality would come in having equal space, facilities and respect towards the opposite genders. Just because males are doing this, I don’t need to this. I believe that we are at a much higher level than men, and our fight for equality is not for clothes. No doubts that we all have choices and all these choices are respected, but, baring chest or showcasing private parts because males are doing is something which according to me isn’t dignifying for a woman she is beautiful, when she is dressed in dignity and confidence.”
There are hell lot of issues where we need to fight for equality but, comparing all the time, in all the way with men is in a way degrading ourselves only.